I'm glad my mom died - Jenette McCardy : A hard-hitting memoir

 I'm glad my mom died

-Jenette McCardy

I didn't watch Jennete Mc Cardy's show, but this was such a hard-hitting memoir, as she recounts her life as a child actor and her childhood where she constantly sought love from her mother, not realising how awful her mother is. The book went on to discuss her time on the 'Sam and Cat' show and how her eating disorder took a toll on her mental health.

I loved how Jenette writes so engagingly, and I didn't want to put my e-book down as I was so engrossed in her easy-flowing and captivating writing style, which captures your attention. The title hits hard after reading the book, knowing how much it must be difficult for someone to navigate about the place she put her mother as a child and revisit the trauma to realise how much her mother was a toxic presence in her life, from pushing her into acting to encouraging her anorexia.

People seem to assign thin with “good,” heavy with “bad,” and too thin also with “bad.” There’s such a small window of “good.

This portraits the ugly side of child acting. Jennete's account of her experiences really stuck with me and her situation at home and her unhealthy relationship with eating habits and her toxic mother which she is finally cutting off by reclaiming herself with her decision to quit acting. I hope she is able to overcome her trauma and I wish her all the happiness.

Sometimes I look at her and I just hate her. And then I hate myself for feeling that. I tell myself I’m ungrateful. I’m worthless without her. She’s everything to me. Then I swallow the feeling I wish I hadn’t had, tell her “I love you so much, Nonny Mommy,” and I move on, pretending that it never happened. I’ve pretended for my job for so long, and for my mom for so long, and now I’m starting to think I’m pretending for myself too.

Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐